My Baby's Home

When news of Sandy hitting the east coast started picking up, we decided to scrape some money together to fly my baby home from NY.  It has been absolutely wonderful having him home.  I needed him to be here.  I knew I would be pulling my hair out watching the weather news.  Although I did spend much of my time watching the news, he was beside me...safe.  It's times like this that really makes me wish he would have liked a school closer to home.

I must say though - there is something about his visit that has put me at peace.  I feel as though he has matured a lot in such a short period of time.  When he leaves this time, I will be okay because I know he will be okay.  I have cooked all of his favorites and we have spent a lot of time together.  I am happy.  He said he is so happy that he had a chance to come home, but he is ready to go back.  I am okay with that.

I think I have gotten kind of used to being alone.  I am so off schedule this week and my kitchen stays messy.  Since he left for college, I have not been cooking.  I have been fixing myself something really quickly.  lol  I have not exercised all week.  I am ready to get back on my schedule.  The best of both worlds for me would be Rico going to college close enough to come home whenever he wants.  But, he absolutely loves NY and his freedom to explore.  If he loves it, I love it.  Until Thanksgiving...

* Big shout outs to my family for their continued support.  Without them, this would not have been possible.

He is just fine

I just called Rico to see how his day was and I heard a bunch of background noise. I asked where he was and he said at the Jay-Z concert. Jealous! Last week it was ASAP Rocky. Not jealous. Every time I call he is either on his way to or coming back from somewhere. I am really happy he is enjoying his time in college - even happier if he can do all that while maintaining a great GPA.

Get to work!

My son has been in college for a month now and he loves it!  He is exploring NY & making so many new friends.  He assures me that he is staying focused also.  lol  As for me, I’ve had my ups and downs.  The downs:  I’ve gained about 10 lbs., pretty much stopped exercising regularly, I’m still unemployed, broke as hell, stuck with my son’s dog and most days I look as if I am going to do yardwork – and not like those fancy ladies with the hats, gloves, button down shirts you see in commercials.   The ups:  My mom is back home, I jumped right into decluttering/organizing 4 rooms and the majority of my closets and I received my B.S. degree in Exercise Science (how ironic).  But after that initial burst of energy, it died down.  

Yesterday, that energy came back and I decided to tackle the largest decluttering project – the office.  It became a packed to the brim storage room for bins, nostalgia and shit I just did not feel like dealing with.  I still have old bank statements & bills from when my son was a tot.  I am a PACKRAT!  If it were not for my OCD, I would be on Hoarders.  I have decided now is the time to downsize. I plan to let go some and do a lot of shredding.  I no longer need to hold onto all of the college stuff sent to my son over the last year because he is in college.  I no longer need all of my notes from college because I now have a degree that says I should know it all.  I must admit, I am going to keep and organize a few binders of it.  Now that the pressure is off, I want to go back and really learn some of the stuff I was supposed to retain from the classes.  

This is going to be a huge project because I am the type to break down everything and put it in separate containers.  I am that girl who has bins labeled paperclips, earbuds, chalk, eye care, candles, etc.  If I can cut everything down to half and get everything in it’s appropriate bin/container, I will be very happy.  I plan to take you all along on my journey of decluttering & organizing – not just my home, but my life.

This week’s plan:

1. Get Organized – I plan to work all day Saturday separating, discarding & organizing
2. Get Fit & Cute – Sunday will be a day of working out, shaving/waxing, mani/pedi & doing hair (all by me, of course, because I am broke and very capable of doing all of it)
3. Get Paid – Next week’s focus will be aggressive job searching & following up, figuring out finances, & maybe selling some of this stuff.

So, now it’s time for me to blast my music & get back to Plan 1: Get Organized.  I will post before, during & after pictures later.

Lasts

I'm starting to count lasts.  Tomorrow is trash day.  While watching Rico gather all the trash, I could not help but think it's the last time he will have to take out our trash.  Every meal I cook, I think it's the last time I will make that.  Really it is because I don't like half the shit he likes for dinner.  lol  Today is the last day I am doing all of his laundry for packing.  I know it's silly, but I can't help it.   I am in a funk.  I need to get it together.  I will get it together.  It's just going to take a minute.

One day...

“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep… wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you’re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you…. The one who turns to his friends and says, ‘that’s her.’”

When I saw this quote, it made me smile and feel all mushy. 

FC First Day of School

Today is the first day of school for the kids in our county.  My son is still in the bed.  He is too grown for all of that.  No picking out THE outfit.  No laying out the outfit and shoes as if he could just slide in it in the morning.  No first day of school pictures & how was it video.  No need for me to call to correct the schedule because they get it wrong every year.  No racking up on 1 cent paper or 20 cent crayons.  

Instead, I have a young man who calls his college to get his own schedule changed to his satisfaction (no classes Tues. & Fri.) and checks Rate My Professor to make sure he actually needs the books before purchasing.  He is quite independent.  The year of dual enrollment at GSU has really prepared him to be on his own.  They have given him credit for both of his english classes & the government class.  That is 9 credits out of the way before he starts his freshman year!  

Things are changing and I know it’s for the better.  It just does not feel like it today

Still here

I have not forgotten about my blog.  Things have just been so busy and the house has just been so full of people.  There have been dinners, card nights, sleep overs, and we helped Aysia move into her dorm room.  This afternoon is the first time in about a week that this house is occupied by only the people who live here.  I am exhaling a bit, although, I have lots of cleaning and washing to do now.